I haven't posted in a while.. lots of things have changed in my life. Some of my dreams that I wanted are dead now without life. Well alot of them I have thrown out the window, alot of them are based out of ego, fame, fortune and the mundane of it all.
Most of them seem worthless to me now. Most have no reason behind them but to feed some need of mine to prove myself worthy and do something that proves that I am great.
I don't need some list of dreams that I have completed to make me feel whole.
I don't need Riches and Fame to make life have a meaning today.
I don't need people to tell me Im a great blogger and I should write it up
I don't need anyone's approval to be me!
Many things have changed in my life today, I am really considering deleting this blog too.
or starting it from scratch based on a new focus.
What do I seek today... Well many things but in the end I seek happiness, peace and love.
Things that no outside influence can really give me.
For it is truly the spiritual Love and inner happiness and peace that I seek.
I have already deleted my Facebook account for it seemed meaningless and lame
and I really wasnt getting much value from it... besides feeding of the ego.
Maybe that is what this blog is a feeding of the ego... That I must unleash myself from the chains of.
I dont know I do know that my life as been full of chaos which from the chaos will spring order.
I am refocusing on me the foundations that make me whole.
Learning to truly love myself and forgive me for my past.
I don't need any praise or outside influence to do that.
I may blog I may not I don't know.
I know I love to write and I will write, rather I make my writeings public
is yet to remain seen.
I have wrote many poems lately that I will compile into a book.
When will it be ready not sure yet... So even though I have not been here,
writing I continue to let the words drip from my pen more in a way that suits me.
I love poetry I like the art of it the words the passion
as it drips from the pen.
I like the fact I can format it the way I see fit.
In the end writers write soooo I will write just maybe not here.
Peace Im out!
